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INCIDENTS IN THE LIFE OF A SLAVE GIRL, SEVEN YEARS CONCEALED. I. CHILDHOOD. I WAS born a
slave; but I never knew it till six years of happy childhood had passed away.
My father was a carpenter, and considered so intelligent and skilful in his
trade, that, when buildings out of the common line were to be erected, he was
sent for from long distances, to be head workman. On condition of paying his
mistress two hundred dollars a year, and supporting himself, he was allowed to
work at his trade, and manage his own affairs. His strongest wish was to
purchase his children; but, though he several times offered his hard earnings
for that purpose, he never succeeded. In complexion my parents were a light
shade of brownish yellow, and were termed mulattoes. They lived together in a
comfortable home; and, though we were all slaves, I was so fondly shielded that
I never dreamed I was a piece of merchandise, trusted to them for safe keeping,
and liable to be demanded of them at any moment. I had one brother, William,
who was two years younger than myself—a bright, affectionate child. I had also
a great treasure in my maternal grandmother, who was a remarkable woman in many
respects. She was the daughter of a planter in South Carolina, who, at his
death, left her mother and his three children free, with money to go to St.
Augustine, where they had relatives. It was during the Revolutionary War; and
they were captured on their passage, carried back, and sold to different
purchasers. Such was the story my grandmother used to tell me; but I do not
remember all the particulars. She was a little girl when she was captured and
sold to the keeper of a large hotel. I have often heard her tell how hard she
fared during childhood. But as she grew older she evinced so much intelligence,
and was so faithful, that her master and mistress could not help seeing it was
for their interest to take care of such a valuable piece of property. She
became an indispensable personage in the household, officiating in all
capacities, from cook and wet nurse to seamstress. She was much praised for her
cooking; and her nice crackers became so famous in the neighborhood that many
people were desirous of obtaining them. In consequence of numerous requests of
this kind, she asked permission of her mistress to bake crackers at night,
after all the household work was done; and she obtained leave to do it,
provided she would clothe herself and her children from the profits. Upon these
terms, after working hard all day for her mistress, she began her midnight
bakings, assisted by her two oldest children. The business proved profitable;
and each year she laid by a little, which was saved for a fund to purchase her
children. Her master died, and the property was divided among his heirs. The
widow had her dower in the hotel, which she continued to keep open. My
grandmother remained in her service as a slave; but her children were divided
among her master's children. As she had five, Benjamin, the youngest one, was
sold, in order that each heir might have an equal portion of dollars and cents.
There was so little difference in our ages that he seemed more like my brother
than my uncle. He was a bright, handsome lad, nearly white; for he inherited
the complexion my grandmother had derived from Anglo-Saxon ancestors. Though
only ten years old, seven hundred and twenty dollars were paid for him. His
sale was a terrible blow to my grandmother; but she was naturally hopeful, and
she went to work with renewed energy, trusting in time to be able to purchase
some of her children. She had laid up three hundred dollars, which her mistress
one day begged as a loan, promising to pay her soon. The reader probably knows
that no promise or writing given to a slave is legally binding; for, according
to Southern laws, a slave, being property, can hold no property.
When my grandmother lent her hard earnings to her mistress, she trusted solely
to her honor. The honor of a slaveholder to a slave! To this good
grandmother I was indebted for many comforts. My brother Willie and I often
received portions of the crackers, cakes, and preserves, she made to sell; and
after we ceased to be children we were indebted to her for many more important
services. Such were the
unusually fortunate circumstances of my early childhood. When I was six years
old, my mother died; and then, for the first time, I learned, by the talk
around me, that I was a slave. My mother's mistress was the daughter of my
grandmother's mistress. She was the foster sister of my mother; they were both
nourished at my grandmother's breast. In fact, my mother had been weaned at
three months old, that the babe of the mistress might obtain sufficient food.
They played together as children; and, when they became women, my mother was a
most faithful servant to her whiter foster sister. On her death-bed her
mistress promised that her children should never suffer for any thing; and
during her lifetime she kept her word. They all spoke kindly of my dead mother,
who had been a slave merely in name, but in nature was noble and womanly. I
grieved for her, and my young mind was troubled with the thought who would now
take care of me and my little brother. I was told that my home was now to be
with her mistress; and I found it a happy one. No toilsome or disagreeable
duties were imposed upon me. My mistress was so kind to me that I was always
glad to do her bidding, and proud to labor for her as much as my young years
would permit. I would sit by her side for hours, sewing diligently, with a
heart as free from care as that of any free-born white child. When she thought
I was tired, she would send me out to run and jump; and away I bounded, to
gather berries or flowers to decorate her room. Those were happy days—too happy
to last. The slave child had no thought for the morrow; but there came that
blight, which too surely waits on every human being born to be a chattel. When I was
nearly twelve years old, my kind mistress sickened and died. As I saw the cheek
grow paler, and the eye more glassy, how earnestly I prayed in my heart that
she might live! I loved her; for she had been almost like a mother to me. My
prayers were not answered. She died, and they buried her in the little
churchyard, where, day after day, my tears fell upon her grave. I was sent to
spend a week with my grandmother. I was now old enough to begin to think of the
future; and again and again I asked myself what they would do with me. I felt
sure I should never find another mistress so kind as the one who was gone. She
had promised my dying mother that her children should never suffer for any
thing; and when I remembered that, and recalled her many proofs of attachment
to me, I could not help having some hopes that she had left me free. My friends
were almost certain it would be so. They thought she would be sure to do it, on
account of my mother's love and faithful service. But, alas! we all know that
the memory of a faithful slave does not avail much to save her children from
the auction block. After a brief
period of suspense, the will of my mistress was read, and we learned that she
had bequeathed me to her sister's daughter, a child of five years old. So
vanished our hopes. My mistress had taught me the precepts of God's Word:
"Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself." "Whatsoever ye would
that men should do unto you, do ye even so unto them." But I was her
slave, and I suppose she did not recognize me as her neighbor. I would give
much to blot out from my memory that one great wrong. As a child, I loved my
mistress; and, looking back on the happy days I spent with her, I try to think
with less bitterness of this act of injustice. While I was with her, she taught
me to read and spell; and for this privilege, which so rarely falls to the lot
of a slave, I bless her memory. She possessed
but few slaves; and at her death those were all distributed among her
relatives. Five of them were my grandmother's children, and had shared the same
milk that nourished her mother's children. Notwithstanding my grandmother's
long and faithful service to her owners, not one of her children escaped the
auction block. These God-breathing machines are no more, in the sight of their
masters, than the cotton they plant, or the horses they tend. |